Ahhh yes the world of blogs. However, this one is going to serve as my honest, comedic, brutal look at my walk through what I am DETERMINED to be a successful ride through unleashing who I really am. The skinny chic who in my head I see in the mirror....until recently that is! Amazing what happens when you get out of the warm pool of denial.
Over my lifetime I have done everything short of surgery to get this fat off my bones....prescriptions, clinics, low-carb, low-fat, eating cardboard, cabbage galore, blah blah blah. Rationalizations to cheat were as easy to come up with as the need for a shower in the morning.
But, enough's enough!! What's different? I have come to terms with the fact that I can lie to myself more effectively than anyone can to my face. Hell, I beat people to the punch most times! Time to get honest and the time came, slapping me in the face, that accountability is something I don't do well. I lie to me, I lie to my friends, I lie to family. So, time to try strangers!
Tonight I walked into a world that I have never believed in....a Weight Watchers Meeting. This is the place I have always equated with "older people" and with failure as I haven't really met anyone who has succeeded using them. I mean look at the name...WEIGHT WATCHERS! Sure I've watched my weight...go up, go down, go up, go up again, go down, go up. So really, now I want to pay strangers to watch it for me too?!
Yep, I do! Maybe the public display of my fatness will help me come to terms with the pool of denials, the lies and finally unleash the true me.
Oh, yeah....and I get to eat all the fruit I want....woot!
No comments:
Post a Comment